HOW DO YOU PUT A PAUSE ON LOVE

I would have given you the world if you asked me to,

I would have stopped time for you if you needed me to,

Planted you a garden full of roses if that's all it took.

Your smile is all I had left, it’s all I lived for everyday

But you took it all away when you suddenly left

What is life if I cannot catch your smile,

If the sun sets and I am still rooted to the same spot you left me, wishing and hoping for your return

What is the point of watching a beautiful sunset if I cannot turn around and see the awe on your face and stars dancing in your eyes.

I pick a pen and start writing you a letter but the moment I note your name down my eyes fill with tears, I just break down

I never knew there was power in just a name. Our friends ask about you and when they say your name out aloud I crack inside

I am on the tenth piece of paper, I have torn the last nine and still words fail me.

My heart is heavy, I have so much to say but my mind and my hand don’t seem to be in tune.

The portrait of us hanging in the sitting room was a source of intense pride and joy. Now it haunts me but I cannot bring myself to pull it down.

Love never comes with a manual. But even if it did am sure it never would say how much it hurts sometimes.

How do you put a pause on loving someone and hope that pause also takes away the feelings.